I Choose Happiness

     Did you ever write a really long, drawn out note confessing your love to the handsome boy sitting across from you, but good judgment got the better of you so that letter ended up crumpled in the trash next to broken pencils and failed tests? Yeah, essentially that just happened to me, but with a post about my sorrows.
    Sometimes things just really, really, really make you feel indescribably unhappy. Every single person has some sort of difficult trial(s) they're forced to endure. Lately, mine have felt overwhelming. I've really allowed myself to be sucked into all of my problems. They've been defining me, like they're these big words hanging off my clothes- plain old noticeable.
    Graham asked me if I wanted to be a strength for people? I do, I really wish I could show people that I can undergo any difficult task and come out unscathed. But I can't! I'm human! I have more faults than I'd like to think! Yet, I want people to turn to me, if needed.
    You know what though- I can feel depressed and sob and curse the existence of everything. That's been my way, recently. It finally seemed to dawn on me that perpetuates an unending cycle of negativity. And I feel  F E D  U P.
    From here on out, I want to work extra hard to move past sadness, especially when it's self- induced. I want to choose happiness. And it'll be easy! After all, I've got a wonderful life. I am so loved by many people. I've got a spouse who I adore. I have a warm home. I've got food in my refrigerator. And I've got faith in Jesus Christ and His Father.
    I kept thinking: I choose happiness, I choose to feel like tomorrow will be a good day. I choose to live with dignity. This will work out, and I hope to keep a smile on my face in the meantime :)

"Because I have been given much I too much give, because of thy great bounty Lord each day I live. I shall divide my gift from Thee, with every brother that I see, who has the need of help from me!"