A collaboration of all of my adventures through adulthood, being a wife and a bit of wanderlust.
Lacey and Graham: Our Struggle
Tuesday, May 19, 2015
This time in my life has felt like the most difficult. And let me preface this by saying how hard it is to even voice this in the first place, only after lots of discussion and contemplation did we decide to. Lately on this blog I have posted phases like "I've been in a funk" or "there have been lots of lows." Plainly speaking, I have been going through a stage of depression. It is something I had never experienced before, so it's been very difficult to cope with. I have been on the verge of sharing what has fueled that but I have not quite been able to put it into the words I want to use, so- without further adieu, here goes:
Graham and I have been going through infertility.
Funnily enough, I told that to someone and they didn't even know what it meant. Go figure! So in the most simple terms possible: we want a baby, like yesterday. A simple quest that hurts a lot when it doesn't go according to plan. So we decided that we would make a video talking about evvvverything that has happened thus far. This trek has been so lonely but I don't want it to be anymore. It is so hard for us to share this, it's personal (trust me I know) but it makes it just a hint more bearable. There are so many others experiencing or who have experienced it too- I love to hear those stories. I am going to try to make more video updates on my YouTube Channel (and maybe Blog too, we will see) if anyone cares to follow along with our story. I have watched many videos and read more stories than I can express to help me keep perspective.
Sorry for the stutters and blurred footage, it wasn't 100% what I wanted. But, I can say that it was extremely therapeutic to get it all out. Please come to me if any clarification is needed! I am sure we made mistakes or were too evasive at times.
We have confidence in the Lord and His plan for us; we aren't in dire straights just yet. We are not above asking for good vibes and prayers though, if you're that type of person. Please note, once again, how stressful it was to share but we did so in an effort to help ourselves heal, so I hope there won't be any negativity. We have seen nothing but an outpouring of love from the select few who know, thanks so much family and friends. Your love throughout this time means everything to us!
This time in my life has felt like the most difficult. And let me preface this by saying how hard it is to even voice this in the first place, only after lots of discussion and contemplation did we decide to. Lately on this blog I have posted phases like "I've been in a funk" or "there have been lots of lows." Plainly speaking, I have been going through a stage of depression. It is something I had never experienced before, so it's been very difficult to cope with. I have been on the verge of sharing what has fueled that but I have not quite been able to put it into the words I want to use, so- without further adieu, here goes:
Graham and I have been going through infertility.
Funnily enough, I told that to someone and they didn't even know what it meant. Go figure! So in the most simple terms possible: we want a baby, like yesterday. A simple quest that hurts a lot when it doesn't go according to plan. So we decided that we would make a video talking about evvvverything that has happened thus far. This trek has been so lonely but I don't want it to be anymore. It is so hard for us to share this, it's personal (trust me I know) but it makes it just a hint more bearable. There are so many others experiencing or who have experienced it too- I love to hear those stories. I am going to try to make more video updates on my YouTube Channel (and maybe Blog too, we will see) if anyone cares to follow along with our story. I have watched many videos and read more stories than I can express to help me keep perspective.
Sorry for the stutters and blurred footage, it wasn't 100% what I wanted. But, I can say that it was extremely therapeutic to get it all out. Please come to me if any clarification is needed! I am sure we made mistakes or were too evasive at times.
We have confidence in the Lord and His plan for us; we aren't in dire straights just yet. We are not above asking for good vibes and prayers though, if you're that type of person. Please note, once again, how stressful it was to share but we did so in an effort to help ourselves heal, so I hope there won't be any negativity. We have seen nothing but an outpouring of love from the select few who know, thanks so much family and friends. Your love throughout this time means everything to us!
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