Right now: I’m
sitting in Panera Bread with a laptop, a bread bowl and my headphones. To catch
up with me…
4 weeks ago I had to
let my employer know through a series of hectic, yet pretty expected events, I
would no longer be able to continue nannying. The answer was the result of a
lot of praying, discussing it with Graham and weighing all of the
prons&cons. Inevitably, it felt like the right thing to do so, I’m working
twice a month throughout October from here on out… then I’m going to focus on
being a full- time student, wife, Young Women’s leader and anything else that
pops up. It has been incredibly frustrating at times trying to juggle it all; my
schooling and house work has certainly suffered, and I’m excited to realign my
life, hopefully with more success. I’m sure I’ll pick up a little part- time
gig but I am not going to begin to worry with that until I have all of my
current classes have met the deadline of November 30th.
So anyway to
motivate myself to pick up the pace I used my day off to wake up early , to take
Graham to work and bring the laptop to a location with free Wifi. Plus it can
be so awkward that I fell like “ugh better hurry to get out of here!” So with
only 1 hour away from this dang place for an oil change, I’ve been reading,
catching up on tasks and snacking on all their goodies. (Drawback, for sure, I’m
going to try to bring a PB&Honey with a water bottle to cut down on costs,
but I feel guilty taking up space without spending a dime.) But seriously
though, you guys, I am really digging Panera Bread, it’s delicious, they don’t
mind if I sit for hours on end in one chair, I can order a meal right from my
cell phone, I’ve left my laptop for a few minutes and no one stole it, they
gave me a free cookie, there isn’t a charge for their internet services (don’t
act like you don’t want to slap the places that require you to pay) and they’re over-the-top friendly. I like ‘em
a lot.
I ended up putting on my Unchained Melody
station, a favorite, and the nostalgia of home hit me simultaneously with a sense
of appreciation. Yesterday when I had the chance to eat lunch with my Uncle
Luke, Aunt Kelly and boys (who were all headed to Orlando ) I was definitely impressed with my
uncle, duh. To all who know me personally, he has been a role model for me
since he left at 19 years old to the first
missionary in an exorbitantly large family (“Mama, I think he’s good enough to
be the Prophet one day!” “Well Lacey, I don’t know about Prophet, maybe a
Bishop.” Then he checked that off at age 26ish, you never know what's next!) So anyways, my totally
wonderful uncle was chatting and said, “you know Lacey I’m trying to teach these
boys that our trip [a 4 night, 3 day stay at Disney World] isn’t because I’m so
smart or because I’m so good- looking and it was just given to us …it’s because
I’m blessed.” YES. Just yes, there it is. A blessing given to a family that has
a great father who knows enough to remain humble. I hope to follow in suit of
those good examples around me, and with that:
I’m grateful for the past 18 month of experiences as a nanny,
it was such a growing time for me, I feel so much more confident in my ability
to parent.
I’m grateful that my husband has a job that can support the
two of us for a time, and that he is on board with the new changes.
I’m grateful for the opportunity to go to school, as slow as
this process has been for me, I hope to be able to make my parents proud by
fulfilling their dream to have a college graduate.
I’m grateful that though times have felt immensely hard lately,
life has settled recently, and I pray that it continues to happen like that.
So yep, there that
is. I hope lots of awesome things will continue coming in the future. This
weekend Graham and I are going on a Youth Temple Trip, I’m going to teach my
first lesson in Young Women and I’m going home (but just for a day, long
story). This post feels incredibly long, and nothing but ramblings compiled into
one post, but
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Hope everyone has a
fantastic weekend!
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