24. That's how old I am today. I remember when I graduated my Mama said that after high school you'll blink and it's gone. Now I can nod my head in agreement. How am I already 24?
This has been the first year that I haven't looked forward to my birthday. Last year I pranced around with my Birthday Week (that we actually celebrated), while this year it just feels stale? I guess some of it may have to do with the different mindset I'm in now, I feel a little more bitter, more anxious. Last year I thought I would be a mother and about to wrap up with school by now. Neither of those has happened yet and I guess you can say I'm disappointed in myself. It's making accepting another year older a little bit more hard.
But I have to remind myself! Look for the positive. I am so blessed, so extremely blessed. While my year has been stressful, I have friends who never even saw this age. And this is supposed to be among the best time of my life. I'm grateful to be alive!
I guess maybe that's something I need to work on until my next birthday, seeing the good in all situations. Let's start with here: This morning I woke up to numerous celebratory messages from friends and family. Our bedroom, bathroom and living room had been decorated by a sneaky G. S. Alexander. I was gifted with a manicure and massage (Last night I told myself that I was going to book one! Thanks for being on top of things Grahammy!) I'm going down to Disney World to spend the next 3 days. I'm a lucky girl.
As a 24 year old woman (I know everyone older than me is scoffing) I hope do to great things! To seek for the good and be the best I can be! To make it an age to remember! So, here's to me for sucking up my pride and embracing all that comes with 24.
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